I apologize even though I don't feel guilty. I wouldn't enjoy blogging if I couldn't cut myself some slack for life in the real world that keeps me from writing.
In September, I started a job as a care provider in a mental health facility. That started with a few 40 hour work weeks. Then, dwindled down to about 20 hours.
In November, a new grading project came up at Measurement and I worked for a good six weeks at 35 hours.
Now that the holidays have passed and the new year has arrived, I'm trying to pick up as many hours as possible as a care provider. At the same time, I'm trying to figure out where the heck my life is going... I'm highly considering applying to grad school (deadline March-June) and applying for a full ride scholarship through the Air Force to become a military social worker. Whoa! Where did that come from? Yes. I've had a lot on my mind the past months.
On top of all that I am still a VERY loving mother and DEVOTED wife... I may have exaggerated 'un peu' but I really do try my best! So as you can tell from my explanation, I must have felt a little guilty about not writing... No matter how hard I try, I just can't win.
Are you wondering why I am writing to you <mysterious internet people>? Well I came across this amazing blog and "perfect" family who I aspire to be like in all ways... [[Honestly, I have only read the about page so don't hold me to my previous statement!]] I really just want to travel the world with my family and live life today. I don't want to wait until I retire because there's a good chance I won't live that long. [[Accidents happen. Just saying.]]
I feel like I cannot make this happen because...
- My husband is not all for taking risks. Understandable. (NOT TO ME)
- We have a million kazillion student loans.
- We do not have our own business.
- I suck at writing and making websites.
Therefore, I'm probably joining the military. My husband thinks it's the better option... It might be. I'm not highly opposed to it but it is kind of scary. The government will officially, legally, 100% OWN ME. But I'd have a career... one that I could be proud of and still travel with my family.
Life is difficult when you refuse to do the ordinary.